When I knew the details of what had happened, I could not go on with my life as if I did not know. I couldn't turn the page and forget. I tried. But failed. The pain of knowing was different. burdens the soul and body together, The feeling of helplessness was more than I could bear. I have known! So what next? Can you do something? The only thing that relieved me was to write what happened. That's all I can.